pictures

some new april pictures of my angel :)

funk

wow. i have really been in a funk for the last couple weeks. i was completely overwhelmed, exhausted, impatient, etc. then we took a trip to tennessee, which was wonderful. i was so glad to see so many good friends, but it was too much for me emotionally and physically. i had a clogged milk duct (i'm sure you all wanted to know that) which i believe turned into an infection which my body soon got rid of (praise the lord). tuesday night in the hotel i slept 0 hours... ok maybe 3 or 4. i was waking up chilled, then i would be sweating. every muscle and joint ached, and i couldn't get comfortable. anyway, we had to drive back to indiana with me feeling like that, and when we got home, i crashed. i finally started feeling somewhat normal yesterday. it was just a rough, rough time. those of you with children know how difficult it is to feel that way and still have to be a mommy (or daddy). cameron was wonderful and took care of everything except the nursing obviously. 

yesterday and today have been wonderful days, and i'm so thankful to have gotten through that phase. it's so hard going through those times where i just feel like i can't get the rest i need no matter how hard i try. i woke up yesterday and the first thing i said to god was, "let's have a good day." and guess what... he gave me a good day. :) it was so refreshing. i realize a lot of my issue was probably my attitude, and allowing myself to become so stressed out most likely caused the issues with my body. regardless, it was a time of learning, growing, and realizing that there is no way i will ever be a perfect mom, wife, friend, sister, daughter, etc. so i may as well accept it and move on. 

thank you, god for your little lessons. (although, i have to say, i don't usually enjoy the way you teach them). :)

dada

ok, so now her favorite sound is dadadadadadadada. haha once again i'm going to say... i can't believe how much i love this beautiful child.

beautiful

just take a look at this beautiful girl. that's all i have to say.

6 months

my baby's going to be 6 months old tomorrow. this is happening way too fast. i can't believe how much i love this little person! (and the big person who helps me raise her.) :)

mama

she said mama today. actually, it was more like mamamamamamamamama, but still... it came before dadadadadadada. not that there would have been anything wrong with that. i'm just excited. she may not know what it means yet, but i do! :)